Chika says she's "not retiring" from music and expresses gratitude to Cardi B
Chika took to Twitter on Sunday (April 18) to give fans an update.
"I am still alive. I'm fine, "she penned "Thank you to everyone who has contacted me to inquire about my status. It's been a long and exhausting week. I'm not going anywhere. After what I've been through in the last few days, I'm not going to let anything deter me or nearly take me off this ghetto ass planet."
"Thank you, @iamcardib, for reaching out and being so kind to me during a period I'm sure you didn't realize was as serious as it was. I don't think I should take your love for granted because you've always shown it to me "Chika went on. "It's a pleasure to work with you."
In addition, the singer revealed that she would be taking a social media hiatus. "For the time being, I'm going to take a break from social media, whether that means going silent or letting someone else write for me. I'm far too important to be messed with. And it almost cost me my life to know that this internet nonsense isn't worth it "she penned
Finally, Chika posted a typed statement about recent "vulnerable moments" she has had. She clarified her decision to take a break, saying, "It's a chance for me to process everything and preserve the joy I have left."
Chika's messages came after she made a series of disturbing social media posts on Saturday, implying that she was suicidal (April 10).
On April 10, she simply tweeted, "I'm retiring." In her next tweet, she added, "Soon, there will be a live show at the Wiltern. I'll have more details or something. I did s—t the last time I did it. I'm through with it."
Chika responded to the announcement with both recorded and written comments, opening up about being depressed and suicidal, as well as blasting "stans" who she said were exacerbating her personal problems.
In one video, they are addressed explicitly ""I am, and have been, suicidal," she said. It has nothing to do with you and nothing you do makes a difference. Let me say it again. Nothing you do makes a difference. Nobody knows who you are. The only thing you do is pile on top of people's other mental health issues, exacerbating them. You dumb b——-s flooded my comments instantly, not understanding what the f—- I'm going through, so you want me to send a positive godd—- about you and your stupid—- fifth grade stan mates. No, it's not true."
Chika said in a second video posted to her website, "I'm in counseling. I'm basically working my way through s—-, and every now and then I just need to chat. I need to tweet something every now and then. You just think it's funny, it's all fun and f—-ing games... assault me, as if I'm the issue, which I informed my manager yesterday."
"The mental toll being in the industry has taken on me is not something you bounce back from easily," she wrote in a note dated April 10 at 7:23 p.m. I've told my staff, my psychiatrist, and my friends and acquaintances. I told Twitter about it today. Following that, a swarm of delusional fans resurfaced in my mental collapse, harassing me as though I had spoken to them first. When you're down, the negative self-talk you offer yourself can be deafening. Imagine a slew of strangeos piling on top of the thoughts you're still fighting off. It's not cool, it's not 'trolling,' it's not'stan culture,' you're forcing people to their breaking point.
Later that night, she replied to a tweet warning her not to let her guard down ""Stip f—-ing asking me what the f—- had me@upset, I was cleaely upset BEFORE they started f—-ing with me," he responded, "15 yo twitter trolls get you all upset." WHY would I say I'm retiring if I wasn't? You guys are so f—-in stupid that you think a stan will make someone suicidal? No way, n——, I've been here. They just serve to exacerbate the situation."
Chika's representative declined to comment further.
If you or someone you know are struggling with mental health and/or experiencing suicidal thoughts, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255.