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Ally Brooke describes her time in Fifth Harmony as 'traumatizing,' with'so much violence,' according

Ally Brooke is grateful for Fifth Harmony, the girl group where she got her start, but she's also grateful that she made it through.

"I despise admitting this, but my time in Fifth Harmony... It did not appeal to me. I didn't care for it "On Tuesday's premiere episode of her podcast, The Ally Brooke Show, she said as much. "Because there was so much going on, it was difficult. There's a lot going on behind the scenes. There's so much toxicity. Too much maltreatment. Too much power misuse. There has been too much mental violence. Abuse of the tongue. It's terrible, and I think it's a shame because we were such a big group. I could have had a better time."

Brooke teamed up with singers Camila Cabello, Dinah Jane, Lauren Jauregui, and Normani for the act in 2012, after each of them had failed to win The X Factor. Before calling it quits in 2018, they released three studio albums, all of which charted in the Top 10 on Billboard, and toured the country. (Cabello departed the band in 2016.)

"And, once again, I'd like to remind the fans that... I'm ecstatic to have been a part of it. Fifth Harmony has changed my life, and I'm grateful for that "Brooke remarked. "I got to travel the world, meet people who totally changed my life, my world, my career path, and everything else, and I got to meet so many incredible friends... However, it's an odd balance. It's a delicate combination of gratitude and acceptance of the fact that things were not going well for me at the time. And I, personally, took a ton. It was traumatic, and while I'm comfortable sharing and talking about certain stuff, I'm not ready to talk about others."

Brooke felt comfortable about how the young women in the group were forced to fight for parts in their songs and wouldn't know who had won until the song was released. "It was humiliating," she admitted, adding that she had been crushed "many, many times."

She also mentioned a time when she needed assistance because the group was "going through a lot" and things were "breaking behind the scenes."

"He tried to take advantage of me," Brooke said of the person she sought advice from. "When I wake up for a meeting with him, he hands me a freaking thong, which is completely unacceptable because... I know what he was trying to do there."

Brooke has said many times that looking back on her time with Fifth Harmony is difficult.

"When I see a music video, all I can think of is how I felt that day, how insecure or let down or like I wasn't good enough, and how people around me told me I wasn't good enough, wasn't cool enough, wasn't respected, and nobody cared about me. It was a disaster."

Brooke has released numerous albums, competed on Dancing With the Stars, and written a book, Finding Your Harmony, after the group disbanded. She's still working on a solo album.